I wanted to wait a bit for this blog post as it has been pretty hard here for a few days. The latest, is I had to put my little baby cat, Sylvia, to sleep this past Monday. :o( She had got some sort of infection about a month ago and it hadn't gotten any better. The vet had said she had a growth that looked like raw hamburger under her tongue at one point. We tried anti-biotics but she still wasn't eating or drinking anything so, it was just rather sad. I didn't feel like keeping her around just to see her suffer any longer. I know she was spoiled for a good portion of her cat lives, so I'm okay with that.
Brother is doing better as well. I'm starting to call him Robocop because of all the machines he is hooked up too, but he tells me he is feeling better. So, I can't really complain about that. To recap, he's on a heart monitor/shock box 24/7 and has been for the past 2 months. He's also now on a CPAP machine for sleeping. Apparently, when he went to the sleep study, they woke him up after 2 hours as his heart kept stopping. (!!) He was never resting deep enough for the "official" start.
He tells me that when sleeping, it's okay if you your heart stops every 5 minutes or so. That's natural. A little high, but still okay. His heart had stopped 104/hr. No wonder he is never very rested. Basically, it's like a micro heart attack from what I can gather. Does this explain everything? No. It just kind of gives us a new wrinkle in the never-ending health diagnosis puzzle.
Also, got some good stuff for the new homeopathic detective agency too. Issue 2 was feeling really really boring to me. So, instead, this new story arc should be a welcome change. It's more of a South...Western at this point.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Very tired
and it's not just because I've been sick the past few weeks. This whole year (at least to me) has been disappointing to the maximum. I've also been to a lot of funerals. (8) Which, is a really high number when you think about it. It's just rather depressing. I have issues with that anyway so it doesn't make it any easier.
I did just wrap up the homeopathic detective agency for the year so please check that out. My leg is feeling a bit better but I will still probably rest until 2013 for getting (back) into grappling.
Ho-hum. What else is there to say without sounding too out of it. I've also made the decision to leave town. Not just on a vacation but on a more permanent basis. I haven't been really happy here for a few years but divorce and unemployment kind of slowed down those plans. And as the saying goes, "the only one looking out for you...is you." and that's what's best for you.
It is difficult, as I've had to stop my chinese lessons and that sort of thing. The truth is, my brain was complete shit. I couldn't focus on it. My tutor is a nice person and all but my confusion of friend vs. teacher kept getting in the way and I my learning/absorbing knowledge was suffering from it. Then again, with a clean slate, anything is possible. Which I am going to find in 2013.
I did just wrap up the homeopathic detective agency for the year so please check that out. My leg is feeling a bit better but I will still probably rest until 2013 for getting (back) into grappling.
Ho-hum. What else is there to say without sounding too out of it. I've also made the decision to leave town. Not just on a vacation but on a more permanent basis. I haven't been really happy here for a few years but divorce and unemployment kind of slowed down those plans. And as the saying goes, "the only one looking out for you...is you." and that's what's best for you.
It is difficult, as I've had to stop my chinese lessons and that sort of thing. The truth is, my brain was complete shit. I couldn't focus on it. My tutor is a nice person and all but my confusion of friend vs. teacher kept getting in the way and I my learning/absorbing knowledge was suffering from it. Then again, with a clean slate, anything is possible. Which I am going to find in 2013.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Phil-tober 2012
Kind of funny. Around this time last year, I had just been hired by Fazil over at Sign-a-rama and was pretty down on everything. So, it's kind of good I can write down some of my thoughts. There have been some hits and misses this year.
The main thing to me is trying to re-prioritize things. Lately, I think my thought process has been a bit too jumbled. For me to find peace, I have to move. That's not a slight against my brother but after getting laid off, divorced, and broke, you really are used to having your own piece of ground underneath your feet, you know? And for the past few years I've had to be more reactive than proactive about that. At first I kept thinking that a new job is what I wanted and that is important but I really just want my own space. I think that comes with a new job but feeling a bit trapped is not going to help be happy and upbeat.
Not to mention, it's an election year.
One thing that hasn't worked out is taking chinese lessons again. Man, take stuff as a kid when you can take the time to study. I never thought I would appreciate those few hours when I didn't have to be anywhere else! haha. It's much more difficult as an adult with regular work and things like that. I just couldn't get my brain zoned in. I'm not sure if it was regularity or familiarity. I think it was goals. I already knew my tutor and without a direct lesson plan, it was difficult for me to kind of "get it." Now, I was doing okay but no where what I wanted/needed to be. I'm just taking a break until I can get my own space and can take a few hours a week-something I can't do currently.
The main thing to me is trying to re-prioritize things. Lately, I think my thought process has been a bit too jumbled. For me to find peace, I have to move. That's not a slight against my brother but after getting laid off, divorced, and broke, you really are used to having your own piece of ground underneath your feet, you know? And for the past few years I've had to be more reactive than proactive about that. At first I kept thinking that a new job is what I wanted and that is important but I really just want my own space. I think that comes with a new job but feeling a bit trapped is not going to help be happy and upbeat.
Not to mention, it's an election year.
One thing that hasn't worked out is taking chinese lessons again. Man, take stuff as a kid when you can take the time to study. I never thought I would appreciate those few hours when I didn't have to be anywhere else! haha. It's much more difficult as an adult with regular work and things like that. I just couldn't get my brain zoned in. I'm not sure if it was regularity or familiarity. I think it was goals. I already knew my tutor and without a direct lesson plan, it was difficult for me to kind of "get it." Now, I was doing okay but no where what I wanted/needed to be. I'm just taking a break until I can get my own space and can take a few hours a week-something I can't do currently.
Monday, September 3, 2012
Early September.
Yay. Happy late first birthday to me. Apparently, I've been blogging for a little over a year now. Ho-hum, so things that are going on:
Did first web comic panels in color earlier today. So, please be sure to check those out. I was trying to avoid color as I really do like the black & white look but it's a lot different in a book vs. a computer screen. I also rejoined facebook. I'm now managing the workplace twitter and facebook pages. Lord only knows why they want me to do that.
Also debating whether to sign up for NAGA in October. It's a grappling tournament. I realize I'll probably lose badly. I think this is where my lack of concentration and focus hurt me. It seems like I'm not making those adjustments I need too. I blame being hurt. I lost nearly a month of coordination and muscle memory. I still might though. Apparently, I've lost 8lbs since I joined ATT Evolution. So, not all bad. However, I would need to lose maybe 15lbs more (7kg-ish) to reach my optimal weight class.
I may drop my chinese/HSK tutor as well. Lately, I just don't feel like I'm picking it up like I used too. Not sure if it's motivation or the other person in class. Granted, I did miss at least a year of practice so I do feel behind. I've been going at it for 3 months or so and I think I need to just recharge my brain on it. Possibly, take up more Chinese TV or something.
Did first web comic panels in color earlier today. So, please be sure to check those out. I was trying to avoid color as I really do like the black & white look but it's a lot different in a book vs. a computer screen. I also rejoined facebook. I'm now managing the workplace twitter and facebook pages. Lord only knows why they want me to do that.
Also debating whether to sign up for NAGA in October. It's a grappling tournament. I realize I'll probably lose badly. I think this is where my lack of concentration and focus hurt me. It seems like I'm not making those adjustments I need too. I blame being hurt. I lost nearly a month of coordination and muscle memory. I still might though. Apparently, I've lost 8lbs since I joined ATT Evolution. So, not all bad. However, I would need to lose maybe 15lbs more (7kg-ish) to reach my optimal weight class.
I may drop my chinese/HSK tutor as well. Lately, I just don't feel like I'm picking it up like I used too. Not sure if it's motivation or the other person in class. Granted, I did miss at least a year of practice so I do feel behind. I've been going at it for 3 months or so and I think I need to just recharge my brain on it. Possibly, take up more Chinese TV or something.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
The nameless vacation
I had not realized it was so long since well...everything. I guess I took a few months off. Not that I'm better now but I just kind of lost my brain for a bit there. Apparently all summer. I'm back on FB and doing more work-related stuff on that, so please like them/us.
My knee is still crap and I'm guessing it's healing. Just rather frustrating and a waste of time, like most things I've been doing as of late. Video game people are getting on kickstarter for some help, so zombiecastlecrusade.com to your hearts' content.
I've even tried a bit of self-medication but st. john's wart just messes with my stomach. I did try a few supplements but couldn't seem to find one that really helped. I guess moving will/would?
My knee is still crap and I'm guessing it's healing. Just rather frustrating and a waste of time, like most things I've been doing as of late. Video game people are getting on kickstarter for some help, so zombiecastlecrusade.com to your hearts' content.
I've even tried a bit of self-medication but st. john's wart just messes with my stomach. I did try a few supplements but couldn't seem to find one that really helped. I guess moving will/would?
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Phone app-athy
Yes, more first world complaining. Haha. Not really. Just letting you know that ive been changing some apps on my phone to get and stay more up to date. All this social media!
Been feeling real lost this week. Like mentally slow. Very weird. It could be being hurt. Going to the gym really gets me going. And a fightin' gym is even better. I guess technically its a dojo?
Leg is healing. Knee popping. Outside of right. No doctor...yet. hoping for rest and nature to work first.
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