Hard to describe.

I think because it's spring. I just feel like I gotta move. Not in a dancing kind of way. I know I'm no good at that. My gut is just telling me that the way to get out of this funk is to get some miles between here and me.

Early March.

Lots of things going on. And one of the few weekends in the past few months that I actually get to relax. Or at least stay home for once. The new job is coming along pretty well. There are some kinks to be worked out to say the least but it's nothing impossible.
Comics are moving forward and yes, I will miss my aunt a lot. She was my favorite aunt as a child and I'm sure the 2nd adult to actually give me ice cream for breakfast. (The first being my grandmother) I wised up that time and got chocolate chip.
However, organization is never-ending and complex. No rest for the wicked, I guess. I'm just worse than most.

Good byes and good byes.

RIP Aunt Ginger. She passed around 5am this morning. Kind of ironic because her birthday was the 23rd. I also thought she visited me around 6 as I woke up for no reason. I'm glad she didn't suffer too long as being hooked up to machines and being paralyzed is no way to live. Her heart was always in the right place and I know she will be missed.

Nearly March.

It's only been a 2 weeks or so since I last wrote one of these but it feels so much longer. To make a long story short, I'm pretty emotionally beat. My aunt suffered another stroke last week and I went to see her. Now, they don't tell you exactly how difficult that is. Well, let me tell you that it is. When I saw her after her first stroke (which should have been a sign), she was okay. It is always hard to see someone you actually care about suffering. In movies, television, even friends it's not the same. She could at least still talk and had a lot of spunk left for someone in a hospital gown.
So, after this second one, ugh. It's not like you don't want to be there but you have to be strong for them. This time around, my aunt is completely paralyzed on her right side and partially so on her left. She can't talk and/or swallow and has plaque on her brain stem. I'm not even sure what the fuck that is. However, I don't think it should be there inside of my aunt. The decision has been made to take her into hospice care. Now that she can't really communicate, it's not fair to keep her going as a vegetable. The fine folks at U of IC medical center have already saved her a few times.
The extended family has been a bit hesitant to get their feet moving (*cough cough* Uncle W and cousin D). I am just hoping that she can get to see them again and say whatever wants to say to them. That's probably the thing that's on my mind the most now. There is more but I'll have to write about that later.

Good morning 2012

Writing? Maybe not so much. I feel like doing. Some crackpot hit my car yesterday evening too. So i had to silicon a side mirror on today. Now, my car wasnt worth that much before and this isnt helping.

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Opening Salvo 2012

It's been a rather quiet week for me and very much up-and-down. Even though I'm not doing that much, it seems I am busier than ever. Just trying to catch up on things that weren't really happening in December 2011. To be honest, it was quite depressing the way things were ending. My aunt was in the hospital after suffering a stroke (not good) and I went up to see her. She gets out of the hospital this week (Friday 1/13) and into a nursing home. She's still paralyzed but much better than she was.
Then there's my job. Wow, where do I begin about that?! Ha ha. I knew that the drive was going to be an issue and wow, is it ever. An hour one-way is still an hour one-way. I drive almost 3,000 miles a month now. I was looking for a new car before and I'm just hoping it can make it a few more months. That's not to say there aren't perks. My coworkers are very down-to-earth and I get the occasional free lunch. Who would have thought a mighty fine falafel was in Belleville, IL? However, I don't think we're all on the same page. When you are a small place, everyone needs to work together-and that doesn't happen as much as I'd like, or needs too. As, I haven't lied to a client in over 15 years and I sure as heck am not about to start now. That's a slippery slope that you can never win once you've started it.
In other news, Chinese New Year (year of the dragon) is on my birthday. Talk about a weird coincidence. I used to know the lunar calendar/formula to calculate the day but forgot it. It's weird because when I was born, the new year was a week afterwards. So, I really don't have a clear-cut sign. I will say, it's been lucky for me. And I did buy a powerball ticket. Now is not the time to leave a stone un-turned...baby needs more than a new pair of shoes.

2012. The beginning of the end.

Good evening all. Well, I hope you made it to 2012 alright without too many bruises and bumps. I must admit, 2011 wasn't all that kind to me so I am ready to start a new year. My lack of a current calendar not withstanding. No, I'm not going to rattle off a bunch of resolutions. As those tend to be forgotten and any real meaningful change is going to be difficult and take more than just a few days. That being said, I am looking forward to it. Not to mention, Chinese new year is on my birthday this year (the 23rd, for those that didn't know)! Kind of exciting and also kind of weird. Chinese new year rotates on the lunar cycle. I used to know the exact formula but it's not all that random and not every day can become a chinese new year's day. Not to make anyone jealous. :oD